Peace

 

Sometimes we make hard choices in life.  I was ready to quit my new job.  I actually did and in the end I came out a part time employee which I am happy about.  It is the best of both worlds.  I will get adult time and an income while I still get to spend afternoons with my children.  I think I can manage this.

Blackbird Lace - Stell Bom*

@Designer Showcase

Heartsdale Jewellery - Flora Collection*

@Designer Showcase

Doux - Wendy Hairstyle

Knife Party - Horizon Eye Makeup Evo X

Avanti - Arionne Nails

Foxcity - Lazy Pose

Foxcity - Photo Booth Nap Corner V2

Time

 

Change is inevitable.  Change is hard.  I have really been struggling with work and not being home with the kids.  As much as they drove me nuts I had time with them.  As a working Mom you don't get that time with them.  I don't like the rushing, the quick baths and the sub par dinners I now make.  I want my time back.  I don't know how single Mom's do it.  I have a partner and still can't seem to feel like it's working for me.  I also feel like a failure for not making it work.  The job is not hard it's just not where my heart is.  Another day down.

QE Home*

Farmhouse Blanket Chair (LI:6), Rug Trio Steampunk (LI:5), Console Table (LI:3), Steampunk Wall Art (LI:2)

Apple Fall - Steadfast Dining Chair Olive (LI:1)

Catacomb - Steampunk Candles (LI:8)

Ex Machina - Steampunk Desk Lamp (LI:2)

Pixel Box - Steampunk Book (LI:5)

Steampunk Camera (LI:1)

Trompe Loeil - Steampunk Lamp (LI:3)

Dust Bunny - Desert Dreams Cacti Style A Shade 2 (LI:5) & Cacti Style C (LI:4)

Island Life

 

Someday I will make it to a tropical island where I will sit on the beach with a nice cold drink, listening to Kenny Chesney while staring out over the ocean.  I love the ocean, but my husband does not.  While we get to live in a beautiful forest, I would trade it for the ocean in a heart beat.  I think I need to plan a family trip to the shore line.  It won't be a tropical oasis but it will work.

Raindale - Oceanberrry Collection (Only sold at Arcade)*

Beach Towel Pink (LI:2), Ladder LI:1, Lifebuoy Yellow (LI:1), Parasol Pink (LI:5), Pier (LI:5), Rolled Up Towel (LI:1), Beach Blanket PG (LI:4), Tent (LI:8)

Old Barn Door -  Mermaid Beach Bag (LI:3)*

Trompe Loeil - Nixie Beach Boat Bed  LI:21

Dust Bunny - Dreamy Outing Cooler (LI:8) & Picnic Basket White (LI:7)

Relax

 I would love to relax on this settee, read a book and drink a glass of wine while listening to soothing music.  It seems my days of relaxing are down right over.  I love the vibrant pops of color throughout the plants.

LouChara - Gracie Full Set*

Butterfly Lamp (LI:6), Daybed and Chocolates (LI:10), Flowers and Candles Decor (LI:9), Rug (LI:2), Wall Art (LI:6)

@Summer Carnival

EED's Summer Carnival Pots* 

Pot 1 (LI:7), Pot 3 (LI:2), Vase 1 (LI:4)

@Summer Carnival

Apple Fall - Huge Fan Palm (LI:2)

County Fair

 

I grew up in a small rural faming community where the county fair is everything.  Hell, if you want a class reunion just go to the destruction derby on Sunday night.  I took this great photo at Summer Carnival. 

I.M. Collection - Summer Top & Skirt w/belt*

@Designer Showcase

Heartsdale Jewellery - Pearls for Thera Set*

@Designer Showcase

Wings - TZ1120 Hair

Extra - So Fluffy (Pose)*

@Summer Carnival

Another Day

 

Here we go.  Week two at work.  It was not as disastrous as last week.  I don't mind the job as much as I miss being with my kids.  I know the feeling will fade with time, but I wish the job would have started in the fall when they went back to school.  I purchased some dresses for work, but nothing this scandalous would be office appropriate in RL.

Well Made - Salma Dress*

@Designer Showcase

Nothing New - Modena Sunglasses 15% Transparent*

@Designer Showcase

Pure Poison - Eva Necklace Gold

Doux - Yana Hairstyle

Gos - Coco Quilted Mules Rouge

Foxcity - Photo Booth The Apartments

Finally Friday

 

I forgot how working feels.  I entered a sinking ship on Monday with a key person in the office gone.  From there it only got worse.  Three days of semi organized chaos.  On the fourth day my daughter had a promotion ceremony.  I didn't take enough time off work to stay past the speeches.  I didn't get to spend time with her and the other parents.  As I was walking back to the car alone, I had a full on panic attack.  Today, I am wondering why I wanted to go back to work so badly.  This wonderful scene in Second Life will brighten any dreary day.  I will be taking up a pool float this weekend and enjoying just being.

Tylar's - Captiva Island*

 Animated Pelican (LI:10), Island Dock Long Legs (LI:12), Garden (LI:27), Piling W/Sea Oats (LI:5), Pilings W/Hosta (LI:4)

Tylar's - Ocean Breeze Platform Bento Adult (LI:25)*

Tylar's - Pig Float Bento Adult (LI:6)*

@Malus Park Summer Carnival

Chez Moi - Beanbag Float PG (LI:4)*

@Cosmo

The Final Day

 

Today is my final day of being a stay at home mom.  I am feeling lots of things and I just hope this works out for the best.  Only time will tell.  This round of Designer Showcase opened with a whole bunch of newness that you need to to have.  One thing that will never change is my love of shopping in Second Life.

Lexu - Trinity Set*

@Designer Showcase

Vanity Hair - Own It Browns

Rawr! - Petite Human Female Earrings EvoX

Knife Party - Horizon Eye Makeup Evo X 5

Top1salon - HD Liquid Lipstick Lelutka X Tan Bright

Antinatural - Metamorphose2077 Build 1.01 RARE

@Backdrop City

Sunset

 

My time as a stay at home mom will be setting like the sun next weekend.  In the beginning of June I will be a working mom.  While I have hesitations about this next chapter I feel overall that it is a good move for our family. 

LouChara Astrid Collection*

Cuddle Stool (LI:4), Hanging Chair (LI:8), Lantern (LI:5), Potted Plant (LI:7)

Rug (LI:2), Throw Pillows (LI:2)

Trompe Loeil - Cydney Modern Poolhouse PG (LI:42)

My New Obsession

 

I really love my new look.  I think I am obsessed.  I am ready to live that care free summer life where trips to the river rule our days. 

DOUX - Christwo Hairstyle

LODE - Head Accessory Dream Boho Wreath White

Yummy - Diamond Flower Nose Ring Gold

MJN - Bag Secured EVOX-1

MJN - Smoke Show Liner EVOX-5

MJN - Its a Thing Falsies EvoX

Poema - Subtle Blush 03

Izzie's - LeL Evo X Blemishes Dark 70%

Izzie's - LeL Evo X Neck Moles Medium

Izzie's - LeL Evo X Smile Lines 04 50%

Izzie's - Body Veins & Freckles 04

MILA - Sindi Sand LeL EvoX Browless

ARTE - Hildur Eyebrows Dark Brown

MILANI Cosmetics - Kiki Silver Highlighter 30% EVOX BOM

Euphoric - Kiki Eyes Applier Lelutka Pack#02

LeL EvoX - Avalon 3.1